Hello!
I just finished watching this korean drama called 'God of Study'.
It's about these 5 students at the bottom class study really hard and get into the top university in Korea. But theres a twist. All of them have different plans for the future. Its really sad.
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| God of Study |
Sad... getting old.
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| Lee Hyun Woo |
Well, other than that!
I have hospitality workplacement tomorrow!
I'm nervous as hell.... I cant cook.
But the lady was really nice so im also very excited.
The thing I hate about this.. is that i miss a week of school,
I wouldnt mind that.. but its very near to exams and assignments.
How am i suppose to catch up 5 days of school in an hour when i get back?
No! Must be positive! Optimistic!
Hey!
I'm really into creative D.I.Y stuff now.
I was before, but since I didn't have the materials and the time.I didn't get a chance to.
But today... I just used leftover wool... because I knit.. (yes.. i knit.. not that good though.. only know 2 stitches)
I just couldn't be bothered to knit.. it takes so long and you hand hurts after a while.
Okay TIP for all you beginners who want to knit!
Get a thicker needle thing! I got a small.. 3 3/4 mm to be exact
It would be much easier and faster.
But I really want to make clay charms.
It's too expensive though.. all well...
But this is what i've made today :)
Not only that I really want to paint tress! Yes! Tress!
This tree to be exact. It just brings me joy and determination when I see it. To believe that I do have a future.
I still dont know what I want to do with my life. People have been labelling me to become a 'lawyer', 'scientist' and a 'doctor'. Obviously, this happens if your born into an asian family. But now, my parents kind of doesnt nag me as much. Not just that, random people came up to me(well not random.. just people i met once or twice) too. Dude! Do I seriously look like I can become those things?
When I was little.. as far as I can remember. It was to become a scientist. Do you guys remember the cartoon called 'Tracy Mcbeen' or something like that? I wanted to be like her. I wanted to invent stuff. Like Thomas Edison with the lightbulb. And I also enjoy learning about stars and planets (astronomy to be exact) and always had a interest in sea creatures. But as I got older, i realised that these things you had to learn to be like that. It was too hard and complicated. I quit Science after that. I still am very facinated by it when I see it on a documentary once or twice a year on youtube. There was this astronomy place I went to in year 6 camp in Canberra. It was beautiful. We got to see the stars.. of course it wasn't real. Just a hologram thing. But wow. Then I started to get into these crime shows. Like NCIS, CSI, Hawaii-Five 0, White Collar, The Mentalist stuff like that. I really wanted to become a forensic scientist. When Abbey in NCIS. Wow, but then reality came to me. I didn't want to spend all my time in a lab looking at evidence(which is alright) but also dead bodies. I dont want people to die because I cant find the proof where the killer went.. you know..
Then after that, my dreams were crushed. I decided to become a singer... dancer.. musician..
I think it took me 4 years to realise that this wasn't going to work out. I still dream about it sometimes. I realised I couldnt sing... or dance (well.. dance i think i could get the basic if i learnt it). I couldn't afford any dance lessons. I really wanted to do hip-hop. Or b-boy(b-girl now..ahaha). I even tried to do a backflip. But I was to scared... to break my neck. So, I tried getting the basics of it. Tries to do a cartwheel. Yes.. I failed. I almost got it. I always land crouched down(not up) :( Hmm.. maybe its coz im not flexible. Then I had no place to practice. Since the place I live is cramped. So, I gave up on that. And musician.. I took piano lessons for a month in primary. I learnt the basics you know.. C D E F G A B C. That was about it. Then I took flute lessons from year 3 till year 6. I was pretty good. Then I stopped in year 7 because I couldnt find a teacher. And coudnt afford one. I still have the flute with me. I know only the basics now. But since I have asthma and I dont excerise much. My breathing is kinda difficult to play the flute. Oh, did i mention. I wanted to get into Julliard. After watching 'August Rush' (my fav movie btw)... but i cant compose. Then I wanted to get into any music schools.. like AIM.. or something after watching 'Dream High 1'. but nope.. dont have the talent.
Then I moved onto another dream. I cant remember. There were lots.
But I guess, it was to do something with english. I started getting compliments about my writing. My stories were a hit... from a teachers p.o.v. So, I started to write as a hobby, You know, crime books. I love crime stories :) Then.. this teacher was saying one day. Its really hard to earn money as a author. Unless your really popular like (J.K Rowling, Stephanie Meyer ,Ronald Dahl). Romance novels do get quite some money to it. But reality came. Im not good at writing romance. And I didnt want to be poor..
So I decided why dont I become a journalist. Like that movie 'The proposal' which i loved! Best romance movie ever (since i dont know much). But I didnt want to be too critical.. and i cant spend long hours on a desk writing something. So it ended after that.
Then I thought about some stuff. I knew I couldnt get good marks to get into a top uni. Even then.. I wanted to go to Princeton in America. After watching that movie '21'. I was determined. Plus the name sounded good. But before.. it was a long time ago. My mum wanted me to go to John Hopkins in America and do a doctors course. Obviously.... in your dreams. lol. But then reality came again...
Then I thought about opening a shop. A resturant. Since others like clothes (you have keep getting new schools for new trends) that would cost much. So I wanted to open up a small shop. I love eating korean food. And this place called 'Viet nam ho' or something in Eastwood has the best beef rice noodle soup. But I dont have to visa or the money.. dream crashed
Then I thought about having a online store selling crafts or charms.. Then dream crashed. It was too expensive.
Then I figured. Why dont I become a director or a editor.. something to do with tv. I'm good at the filming. But there arent many female directors.. plus that person is in charge of producting the whole movie or video.. so they have to pay. Then why not become an editor.. im good with that. But i dont want to spend my day infront of the screen. The why not become a photographer? I like taking pictures of nature. and anything that looks cool. But you cant get much money.
Then why not be a counsellor? I counsell ... well.. give advice to most of my friends and family. But its really boring.. the job you know..
I thought about a lot of things. And I figured that I cant do anything with my life. If only I could sing.. I could busk on the streets. Maybe get into Australia's got talent or something. Or a dancer like 'George Sampson' now hes huge. But nope.. i wasnt born with these talents.
So, I'm thinking about getting into any uni I can get my hands on.. here in australia (not in america sadly.. i will still apply but i wont get in). Thats my goal so far. I have no plans after that.
I love music(playing wise)
Likes dancing(hip-hop, b-boy)
Interested in science (astronomy, sea creatures, forensic)
Love writing crime stories
Likes taking photos and videos
Likes creative stuff (like art, knitting, crafts)
I like a lot of things. But sadly, i cant do most of them.
If you've read up to here. WOW.. give your selves a clap.
Sorry, for the long rant.
This is more like a journal to me.. stuff i wonder about.
Thanks
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