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Wednesday, 15 July 2015

I think I really like you..



I like you because you let me be there when you're not at your best, and I simply see just.. you

I like you because even while I'm asleep, you keep me warm inside despite the shivers and chills of your own

I like you because you were there by my side to wipe away my tears, and put a smile on my face again (cried with me)



I like you because while I was feeling insecure, you reassured me to do amazing things and stay positive



I like you because when I'm scared you're always around to lift me on your shoulders 


And although I may not be the one you were looking for. I'm really happy that you see me for who I am. My imperfections, my flaws, the things that I  have stepped on your feet for and forgiven me many times.

I like you because.. 

 C.S Lewis once said that every friendship works only because three's an invisible lining through everything in the world. Two totally different people see the same lining in the same thing and turn to each other and say "hey, do you see that too?" that's how relationships are born.

I think I really like you... and I'm not afraid to admit that I may be falling in love with you

For the first time in forever...  I won't be alone

Friday, 26 June 2015

You and me


Because im dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world i'd rather be
 Than here in my room
 Dreaming about you and me
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, 25 May 2015

Thinking about the future

Dreams and aspirations:



Attend a Film School. Diploma of Screen and Media (Film and Television)

Graduate from University. Bachelor of Education (Early Childhood to Primary)

Get a Degree. Bachelor of Media and Communications

Work in a Business Environment. Office 

Work in a Video Production. Cinematographer

Become an Entrepreneur. Wedding Creative Company

Hold a Workshop or Seminar. Photography and Videography in the Freelance World

Teach Education at a Tertiary level

Create a Feature Film

Become a Director. Director of Photography. Cinematographer. Photographer

Give back to the people I love and cherish

Have a Family




Sharna

Monday, 25th May 2015 - 9:20 a.m 

Where to from here..

I'm not sure how to start this.. 

There has been times where I've broken down 
and was not able to come up again

It's been hard.. lately. I don't know why or how I became at a state like this

Emotional? Over thinking too much? 

The feeling of being loved or appreciated doesn't define with me at this moment, as if my existence is a hindrance to people's lives where I'm only summoned when they need of my assistance 

Like I'm an object. Just justified to people's commands with no human needs

I don't know what to do right now

Don't get me wrong. I've very much figured out my life by this point, trying to live it to the fullest and grow as an individual exceeding over my limits and reaching for my goals and aspirations for the future

I feel as though I've lost a lot of people in my life because of my stupid 'mistakes"

Wanting things for the better. And it was for the better. It wasn't safe

Because of my naiive personality and limited knowledge of the circumstance, I suffered through it. Thinking it would get better, one day

It never did

I guess I just want some sort of comment. recognition. acknowledgement that I am human and I have flaws

I'm not ashamed of my past. I have guilt over it, yes but it's what made me who I am to this day

I will never forget it. But I will forgive.. and it will just be another memory to me

No emotions attached. No feelings revealed

Just another piece of experience at the back of my brain

So.. I'm asking myself 

Where to from here



Sharna 

Monday, 25th May 2015 - 1:45 a.m 

Wednesday, 14 January 2015

2015


Being a huge sucker for all things cheesy and cliché, I have let myself loose and gave in to participate with the rest of the world in creating a new years resolution. On the 1st of January 2015, inspired by BlueFinchPhotography I have compiled a list of 12 things – one for each month that I have always wanted to try but never got the chance to, exception to a few that was lost during the journey from being far too busy or lazy to continue.

My vision for the year ahead is all about trial and error. Find new passions. Lose bad habits. Grow as an individual and learn from mistakes. With my mind set at the right place,  Im determined to make the most of it! Excited to see things the way others see and feel, and experience it as much as possible with all kinds of new people.

1.        Compose a song

2.       Make Cannelloni

3.       Learn to crotchet and use a sewing machine

4.       Create a photo album

5.       Write more

6.       Make perfect coffee

7.       Play musical instruments

8.       Learn to design

9.       Create video content

10.   Achieve a First Aid Certificate

11.   Put together a zine
 
12. Photograph on Film

Monday, 5 January 2015

Brand New Year - 2015

Once Upon A December

31st Decemmber, 2015

Today marks the last day of 2014!
An indescribable year filled with lots of new experience and memorable moments, following this journey with me the most amazing group of family and friends. Could not be anymore grateful for them :)
Here's to exciting adventures 2015 will bring!

Have I been keeping up with my New Years Resolutions?

3rd January, 2015


Get In Shape

The first few months, I complied a small list of routines and workouts in my spare time. In the morning, a few stretches were done, walked the dog and insisted on other options like walking than always relying on public transport or electronical ease such as elevators, escalators etc. Keeping up with the small substraction in addition to cutting down the junk food intake and persisiting on more healtier options with more nutritional value, somehow my weight dropped down to 45kg but by the end of the year I managed to get back to 50kg.

Manage My Time

Procrastination is the biggest weak point of my personality when it comes to self management. With people, organisation and time management is what I largely revolve around with, and am good at organising my time efficientially in order to accomplish tasks before reaching the deadline in a satisfactory level - not only that! I'm quite a perfectionist when it comes to my work!

However, with doing things for myself I tend to be a bit more careless and irresponsible with juggling tasks that needs to be done immediately and will do later. The small things that aren't as important becomes the top priorty in my to do list and vice versa.

But this year I have been working well with managing my time between work, schooling and social gatherings.

Do Well With Studies

Not meaning to brag but YES! I think I did pretty well this year (insert cheesy wink face here ;)
I struggled with working on assessments the night before and just getting a pass or credit, with no real proud feeling after working very hard and doing my best, but I worked hard in getting my mindset in the position where it's worth recieving high distinctions and recognition for.

I am not the type that can cram every information on the night before an exam is due, which has been a disadvantage for me during my highschool days when I haven't studied enough, so instead I worked at studying and learning things little by little and asking questions, trying to fully understand before applying the knowledge, therefore allows a more longer lasting and have a better effect in my schooling.

Be More Literate

Lately I have been obsessed with self-discovery and business management books.

One of my highly favorite recommended books is the '5 Love Lanaguages' by Gary Chapman

I have heard a few things long ago about people communicating in different love languages but hadn't understood its full impact till now, because of this book I was able to gain a bit of more understanding and has helped improve my relationships with people.

I have learnt that I really value quality time with my partner. Spending time listening and talking is a big YES for me in getting to know the person in a more intimate level. Without the ability to spend some time together with the attention that needs recieving, there's a bit of disconnection and distancing that I feel, and tend to not fully understand the person and miscommunication to evolve. Another big thing for me is physical touch, small actions like a hug, holding hands can create a sense of love that I feel and am very appreciative of it.

Get A Job/ Driver's License

The first few weeks of 2014, I passed my drivers exam! I am currently on my learners and have been driving around and dropping people off haha.
A Job
Officially I am a freelancer! I am currently doing a media degree, working my way up as a cinematographer, director and script writer. Although I have not

I am contracted as a wedding photographer and videographer for various companies. I fell in love with wedding photography the moment I stepped into it accidentally when I was hired for a wedding videography shoot for a sweet couple back in February sometime last year.
Without knowing anything about wedding detailing or videography using a DSLR, I decided to some research upon it.

Since then I have been attending weddings from Waverley to Berowra, local and destination weddings and have been working with my own company, and making my name known out there as a photographer who specialises in wedding photography and natural lighting.
Although I am have still a long way to go, I am very satisfied at the moment with my career. At this moment, I know I have a passion for wedding photography and videography and creating short films, docos and music videos that can be shared around and inspire people.
I will have a more in depth blogpost about my job in the media field shortly.
Link available here:

Be More Confident and Outgoing

This has been a big impact to me working in the creative field, because I am constantly talking to my clients and colleagues about the latest trends and errors that needs fixing. I am still a bit awkward when it comes to directing the bride and groom but am proud to say that I have grown a lot since the beginning when I couldn't even mutter a word without going through it over my heading over and over again.
I realised that trying to impress someone and rehearsing right words to say over and over will only allow you to think of more negative options of what if... then you miss out that chance of getting to know the person more or focusing on the important stuff like getting a good shot.

Be More Grateful and Positive About Life

This has been a big one.. i think 2014 was a great year. Although it did have its positives and challenges, it was a time where I was tested both physically and mentally and grew as a person. Found out my likes and dislikes, made time for the important things and finally being able to accept who I am as a person and not try to be anyone else.


I think it's safe to say.. my new years resolutions of 2014 was PRETTY GEED!

Cheers for another great year! 2015!

Kind Regards,


Sharna