I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
Wednesday, 21 September 2016
Lose my self control x Frank Ocean
5:00 am (21st September, 2016)
I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
Saturday, 9 January 2016
Checklist for 2016
9th January, 2016 (9:03pm)
Checklist for 2016
Master the Glidecam
Explore Calligraphy Styles
Learn Motion Graphics Animation
Continue making Same Day Edits (within 3.5hrs)
Finalise Long Exposure Photography
Start drafting Short Film Scripts
Get into playing the Piano and Flute again
Cook Tomato Minestrone
Rollerblade and/or Ice Skate often
Take Photos more with Family and Friends
Start Vlogging...
Friday, 8 January 2016
15 Things I Experienced In 2015
8th January, 2016 (9:02am)
15 Things I Experienced In 2015
- I realised that it was okay not to always feel your best. Being happy is something you should be appreciative for, being happy isn't normal. It's something special.
- Being alone doesn't always mean feeling alone. It's what you make out of it.. and appreciate it.
- I had to say my hardest goodbye to my first real roommate/bestfriend forever.. leaving home.
- I was able to call someone I loved and cared about.
- I had amazing peers, in class and out that were like an extension of my family. Nerd Life!
- I graduated, having attained a Diploma of Screen and Media (Film and TV).
- I had to make one of the hardest decision to continue studying a new career path, Teaching.
- My business, has grown so much till this day and hope for it to continue bringing joy to others.
- I was fortunate enough to visit Korea with my mother, and spend quality time with family.
- I had my first Gopchang and Pappingsu experience and it was amazing! I still dream about it...
- I visited the beach once.. (to swim) ironically growing up in a high school near the beach, had an amazing time with a friend fooling around and stuffing ourselves with an awesome brunch.
- I experienced anxiety and panic attacks for the first time..
- I started driving again, hopefully to get my red P's soon in the next few months.
- I juggled freelance wedding work with studies and a social life, both in and out of the home.
- I lost everything that I truly cared about.. and cried.
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