I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
Wednesday, 21 September 2016
Lose my self control x Frank Ocean
5:00 am (21st September, 2016)
I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
I was thinking last night some things and not sure how to put it in words but its a little weird. I don't think for the last three-four years I've actually been single. And its weird to think that coming from me (being independent and a strong woman or that's what I've been told) just means that I was always with someone. That I've dependended on, done life with and shared great memories with. Ive sort of pushed my friends aside and focused on work And relationships. And theres nothing wrong with that, i love all the years that I've spent with someone special ❤☺ couldntve been anymore happier. It was just weird to think that I've never actually been single.. to grow in areas that I've wanted but pushed aside (the whole no thing and putting my foot down, growing Faith with Jesus, communication with friends and family and the list goes on). I was just hypothetically thinking of who to invite to my 21st (not sure if I'm having it yet) and realised.. there's really not much people that would come besides work colleagues.or Unless theyre family friends who's a lot older than I am. It's a bit sad tbh because that's not normal at my age. But I did choose the life of a hard worker 😄 hehe. Remember long time ago when I said I wanted to go on a missionary trip.. well that dream never really left me. But I also remember someone said "noones going to wait for you" and that freaked me out so I hid that passion of mine to visit a less fortunate community and hear their stories. Tbh I have no idea what it's like doing missionary work because I've never been and who knows that might not be the life for me. But it's something I always wanted to try and Yea I guess it's true noone would wait for me. Would anyone? I don't know.. don't think so. I think what I'm saying is that I haven't really had time to be by myself, like be independent and do things and explore the World, see it in a different perspective. Make mistakes, get scared, cry etc. I remember asking someone what did they wanted to do before they got married, and they said live in New York for a few years on their own. To me I was like 😱 naaa that's scary. But Yea that's interesting because I was thinking of living in Korea or Japan on my own for a year or two on my own just to experience what it's like doing things on my own (this was my dream a year ago). I don't know what I'm saying haha just rambling now.. morning rambles with Sharna
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